Like you say, government sprouts off about violence and abuse against women and children…yet my experience has been like most things “kiwi”, it is all about face value….”Let it be said, but, we won’t do anything!”

As for government, it is all about being Polically correct. That is empty, hollow and useless.!!! And what use is it just to hear it and not have anything done? I can fully understand “WHY women kill”. After having experienced the PC, yet OUT-DATED and retarted legal system here!
It does nothing for women to have slogans, adverts on TV and plastered all over doctors waiting rooms and other service providers notice boards IF those slogans do not have government backing!

Thus! WHAT is the use of a propection order if it does not propect you! Shield you from that what you have escaped? Does not provide escape avenues? Open doors to allow you to move on with your life! How can you move on and rebuild you life if you have nothing (not material) but no laws to guide the puppets and the beauracrats?! NO legal status! NO financial avenues! No family! No routine of escape! No laws which govern your property or marriage! No ability to get help financially! (But thank God at least their is legal aid) who knows what the outcome may have been otherwise?

Of what use is this “protection order” if it does not even allow you to return to the “family home” in safety to collect your belongings in a digified manner but only to be allowed by police incompencey to be accused of assulting the abuser and and treated and viewed as the perpettrator!

What is the use of the protection order if the police do not support you, by saying they are understaffed and cannot be their to protect and support you in your most vulerable and desperate hour. But use your raw emotion as an excuse to point fingers at you to say “look at her how she is behaving?” “she is emotionally unstable and out of controll!” Yes well doh!! Of course ! When the very fear you have been told you will be protect from is used to abuse you further!

But the OVERALL most truely amazing experience that I have been faced with through this farce…is the fact that because the abuser sprouted “Unstable, manic-bi-polar woman who is an unfit mother!” The micro scope just shifted its focus onto me! So instead of brillent-minded judges saying “hm I wonder why a woman in such a situation would have found herself in a women’s refuge in the first place, what is going on? and look at that angle! I’m told Because their is “smoke” their must be a “fire”!!! How narrow minded!

I have SUCH anger…and I’m not able to release it as I find myself returned to the house of the abuser now…and I wait ( like I have from the start!) for my work visa to re-instated, for residency, to “rebuild” my life, to “gain confidence” in myself, for the destruction of my children’s souls….
this is all i can muster tonight!